Thought about you from the time I wake up, Day to day smiling to myself, laughing by myself.. I think I've gone insane, only at the slightest look at you or the memory of you inside my heart.. Nothing could make this feeling go away, And I find myself secretly in love with someone on the other side of the screen..

As the days and months had passed, You wondered where I went, I was too busy-- Well the responsible part of me, was taking care of real business, which first you didn't believe. Well, now you had known me better the opposite personality.

Surprisingly, You came to me again, You told me you had "Missed Me" for some reason I was confused, Why was my heart beating, faster than normally. Now it's your turn to leave, I didn't see your name, I sent you messages, but you were not there to return them I sent you a message that I miss you very much too. Do what you have to do, But don't forget, You have me here waiting for you. Now I know the feeling, of missing someone dear to you.

I know you are out there. When the time is right, we will meet. When I meet you, I will love you with all my heart. When we finally find each other, I will never let go of you. When I meet you, I will know. When we are together, love will finally be enough. I will give you all you need and I will never doubt your love for me. I will love all of you, the good and the bad. You will be my bestfriend, and lover. Love is not about give and take. It is about uniting and generosity. We will add more happiness to each other and support each other. I will know I can always count on you. To my one true love: When I find you, I will never let you go.

Life is unpredictable with ups and downs and round and rounds, but life is what you make it, I know it's harder then it sounds. I don't know how many times I've given up hope then got back up and tired, or how many times I committed emotional suicide, and some how survived. Because love is lost and every time it comes around she gets chased off, I used to put up wanted posters, but now I can't afford the cost.

So now a day I think that people enter your life for reasons, from the one night stands to last loves that grow stronger over seasons. But only real love that I have is for my families in Cambodia, the only truth families and true best friend, none before them none to come. Living check-by-check, family problems, haters, and senseless fights, add fuel to all the stress I have that lead to sleepless nights. I smoking and drinking everyday to ease the pain or so it seems, Cuz once it puts my ass to sleep out comes the nightmares in place of dreams.

But honestly I can't complain, ten fingers and toes and not really insane, my heart beats strong and I recognize beauty and I know some of you can't say the same. So this is it, my thought of the day!